Wednesday 10th January 2018 - Music & Lyrics

I was very dissatisfied with my most recent entry. It was incoherent and lacked flow despite constant review and editing and I apologise to anyone who had the misfortune to stumble across it. Psychology obviously not a strong suit.

These heavy, damp, lightless days characteristic of low pressure systems in the UK winter play havoc with my concentration levels even when they aren't inducing full-blown migraines, as is the case today. Excuses done.

Managed to work a little yesterday but otherwise uneventful. No visitors as usual, one nuisance call & the dog followed me around limply whenever I moved.

Watched a light movie last night (Music & Lyrics) in company and afterwards amused myself on Twitter writing #sixwordstories to Classic FM in the background - got a few likes so they couldn't have all been bad. I find it odd how the approval of strangers becomes important but it is. The 'sleeping' hours were even more restless than usual on account of the headache.

Thoughts remain very dark & a constant preoccupation. An opportunity was missed yesterday when I was alone for most of the day. I have a plan but it may take a few hours (I'm a coward & don't want pain or struggle at the end) to be effective & by the time the courage was raised it was too late.

Not convinced that anyone has read anything I've written on this blog as no reaction or interaction has been forthcoming - visitor numbers are slightly up but I'm starting to think this is robots sweeping the link I leave on Twitter daily. Nevertheless, it will serve as some sort of record I suppose.